study.. and me

are really not good friends ! i hate it !

even though, blah blah, i know it's supposed to be for my own good and it will help me improve myself etc. etc, i really really hate it !

life is depressing nowadays.. it really REALLY revolves around work, study, eat, sleep. wtf, that's no life.

i really wonder if studying again is going to be beneficial :x

it's not however, cheap, and it's painful to see my bank account go so sharply downwards. i really better not waste my money ! so.. hv to pass ! even though pass rate, is wtf, 33% *cries*

wish me luck, ppl !


in the mean time, a photo from grampians coz it was a really fun trip




ok, meh. so there were two !


may the force be with my mortal enemy,
cheers~

meh.

a quick post before i sleep.

this is the end of my life as i know it..

long story short, my team is understaffed so i'm working 7am - 5.30pm days now on till we're not so understaffed and then i can do 7.30-5pm.

that's like 9 and a half hours in the office, wtf. this is no life at all.

good bye life, was nice knowing you. i'll see you again in october.

poor baby. tis not a good time to be a chauffeur. meh. time to sleep. toodles.

may the force be with overworked polar bears,
cheers~

linkin park concert

of all the bands in this world linkin park is my favourite. and they don't do new albums too often so concerts are like once in a few years kinda thing. its been three years since their last concert and man, was i waiting for their new concert. its one of those things i will gladly splurge for. hell, i'll even go alone if i can't drag anyone else along with me. but but.. this is all..

till i found out their touring dates.

melbourne - 13 december.


oh, zomgwtfdamnit. i'm going back to malaysia on the 11th. wtfwtfwtfwtf. WHY is melbourne on the last stop ! why couldn't they come melbourne FIRST? T_T

i'm so disappointed i could die. sigh. LINKIN PARK WTF.

i think this is almost worth changing my flight tickets for. except i can't afford it. and. and, wtf, i think my mum will kill me if she found out i'm cutting back my 13 day trip back to malaysia after two years just coz of linkin park.

WTFWTF

not so bad after all.

there are sometimes life really has no grand plan for you. you're just one of those ppl that got left behind in life's wake and you're not really sure what to do, how to manage everything and you wake up wondering how the hell you ended up this way.

but sometimes, life also gives you a wake up call that however bad it can be, it could always get worse. and at times like this, like now, i thank god that life looked after my family and it was nothing.

i have to remember to count my blessings more often.

may the force be with everyone,
cheers~

JAB JAB JAB

i am.. having... a wonderful day. not.

i shall start by elaborating about my day.. yesterday.
i decided to go to the city to go look for a masquerade mask coz elaine2's having a masquerade party this fri.. i was wearing boots coz it was effing cold and i felt a sharp poking pain in my left boot and i thought, si liao, spider bit me. but then, before i could do anything about that, my right boot pulled a mentos (if u don't get that, i mean, the heel broke, wtf)

soooo i walked to the tram stop and got off at bourke to get a pair of slippars (yes it was damn pathetic, limping through the streets)
went to look for masks, and didn't get it in the end coz wilson got fined, rofl. poor guy.

anyway, today ! i was heading to the gym wtih vin when i looked at my socks and was eh, how come there's a hole ? and i remembered the 'spider bite' and looked at the hole.. it was like soaked with blood. and then.. i felt the inside of my boot and realised, zomg! NAIL POKING OUT !
so.. in the end didn't go gym. called medione to make a medical appointment, got one, rushed to the city (thanks vin for accompanying me!! I LOVE YOU!) and got a tetanus jab. the doctor was SO unprofessional though, meh. but more on that another time.

and damn it, it was expensive!! and the doctor was unprofessional ! RWAR!

now my arm's.. SORE. and i mean. sore. i can't lift it. meh.

=(

and i had to buy a new wireless adapter. that cost.. a further 30bucks.

may the force be with jabs,
cheers~


a video coz i realise blogs without photos are boring stuff.

hide behind the radiance

happy birthday.

prepare to dance.. or not

trance energy to kickstart my easter holiday.

it was.. ok.
camera crashed though. so hating my heroes power now.
so all the photos from the day are GONE.
as well as a few vfest photos i have yet to upload.

wtf. i'll go bang my head against the wall now.
and go kill myself.

rwar. why does everything i touch seem to get spoilt?
=(
fml.

thinking does me no good.

“Just because a friendship or relationship ends does not mean that the other person is a bad person. Nor does it mean that the other person is crazy. Nor does it mean that the other person never cared about you or any of those things we often say. It simply means that it wasn’t meant to work out and though it is horrible and unfortunate and sometimes heartbreaking, it’s not the end of the world. Other friends will come along, other boyfriends and girlfriends will come along. Sometimes things just aren’t meant to be. And that has to be okay. It has to be okay because otherwise what do we have?”

Samantha Mott

it's been a month.
this however, is called optimism.
the grass may not always be greener on the other side but it mustn't be too bad. and there's a possibility it is greener.

i know i'll do ok now (;

cheers~

just so you know

i realise i haven't actually found anything i really wanted to blog about for sometime now.

but that's ok.
i'll just be really quick with this update.

as i'm sure most of you know i came back to melbourne already (bai bai penang) and it was a long long trip that consisted of more than 13 hours of travelling, yawnnnn

and also, that due to certain circumstances, well, i'm single again now. hmm. that sounds so lame when its typed out.
anyway, i'm sure most of my friends have heard via word of mouth and whatnot, but yea, to my loyal readers (aka as my high school friends and a few scattered around here and there) i'm not in the most gleeful of moods, but i'm doing ok, don't worry!

uni starts tmrw.

in the mean time, i've gotta unpack. goodnight, world.

the space between

i wish i could go back to last year.
even a few days ago would be nice.

blog on hiatus while i find a new angle to view life from.
and get it back in order and on track.

if i can.

in the mean time, go listen to "the space between" by the dave matthews band
video available here

i forget...

i forget, i won't be around during the anniversary of your.. passing, so i'd dedicate a short message to you first, now, a few days early.

i'm going to go see your parents later with the other girls, and i hope, for your sake more than anything, they are doing better. i know you loved your parents a lot and it must pain you to see them suffering so much.
yet, know that we all miss you, and that will never change.
time has lessened the ache that you'll not be around anymore but i'll like you to know, you have brought us, the remainder of us, closer together.
i hope you're happy wherever you are, sometimes, i wished i belief in the afterlife because i know, if there were one, you'll be well looked after there, popular and happy and full of joy because you, of almost everyone i know, were one of the best people. you touched my life, you filled it with shards of gold, and aye, ribbons of pink.

on your anniversary -
very much do i miss you.

for good

i try my best to take one day at a time,
to just get through today so that maybe tomorrow, it'll be better
to open my eyes every morning and know that i'm one day closer to seeing you again,

to get through my day without spending every moment wishing you were here,
i try to have fun and wish you were here to experience my joy with me,

i try my best to take one day at a time,
but sometimes that's just too hard,

i try to take one day at a time,
but sometimes several days just attack me at once,
making it all so difficult to bear,

but i will take it one day at a time,
that's the only way i know how.

four days since i left yet it feels forever =(

from some time ago

backdated !
and no perth photos yet coz i'm lazy to scale them down to size to enable easier uploading.

so therefore you can backdated photos from my trip to melbourne zoo with my bro, mad and nellie.

haha, as you can probably tell, it was still winter when we went, hence why we're all in coats and stuff. yes, i went there that long ago. but i only just got the photos from madison hence why late update (;

yes i'm still depressed about being home and all that but hey, i've settled back in my life here amazingly well.. it's almost like i never left. my room's a mess again (i cleaned it up really well before i left) and my bed's a mess again - my bears can no longer be discerned from my pillow-bolster fortress, yes i'm that messy, haha. at least my room's neatish.

i also went to watch eagle eye last night with my housemates and matt.
it was entertaining but i am of opinion that it doesn't really add anything new to the plate. it doesn't have any original story line (it borrows heavily from a lot of other action movies like i,robot and diehard and stuff which in turn borrows from other movies so.. well.. yea, movie buff like me has seen most of it before) and their action shots are dizzying to say the least. it's all like cloverfield (and i liked cloverfield) but its full of explosions and flying mechanical parts (unlike cloverfield) making it a trap for epileptic fits. not that i get them, just.. well.. it wasn't the best action scene i've seen in my life, haha.

one explanation i came up with is that eagle eye was meant for the imax screen which makes watching it on a normal movie screen seem too.. well.. wide. haha. my eyes couldn't follow what was happening on most of the screen during the action scenes and so, yea, headache: ON.

all in all though, eagle eye's not too bad. it won't leave any lasting impression (shia lebeouf doesn't make that great an action hero star -_-) but it's still a pretty decent movie.

and anyway, PHOTOS FROM THE MELBOURNE ZOO AS PROMISED!

it started to rain when we reached so all of us got a bit wet which will explain my flat-on-head hair. haha.

there was this super friendly monkey that posed by the glass keeping absolutely still so we could take some photos. i think it was a gibbon or something.
and that ridiculous feather duster on the bottom right photo is also some monkey which must be some mistake from creature evolution. its cute, but in a ridiculous way, lol.
sorry mother nature for laughing at your creation =p

i realise i repeated photo of ridiculous monkey (does anyone know what it's called?) but it's too late for me to change photos now so you get to see ridiculous monkey second time around (;
teehee apparently mother nature plays spore too!

also photo of madison playing with friendly gibbon who in turn kept completely still for us to take photos. when we left we saw him SWING over to another group of tourists and POSE for them too ! talk about camwhore monkey, lol.

some random shots of us with a stone elephant and our maccas lunch.

this was some 'sumateran' setting which is why there's paddy fields and the whole wild-tigers live here. the pelican aren't caged so they float in any pond they want to.


orangutan sanctuary! (i forgot post the photo of the sign, lol) and some other stone statues we saw.

madison finally saw a real-life kangaroo in australia !

polar bears here are kinda black, meh. apparently polar bears have black skin and their fur's translucent and they look white because they reflect the white of snow. but there wasn't any snow here so the polar bears look rather grimy. better than the singapore zoo's polar bears but grimy still the same.
=(
iorek's so disappointed to see his real life counterparts looking so dirty.

that blur is the cheetah running.

it started raining again! =(

and we saw this adorable little girl who kept posing for us to take photos so we..

decided to copy her! teehee.

bai bai melbourne zoo !

may the force be with missing someone special,
cheers~

fremantle

i don't think i've ever been this depressed at a parting ever before. not when i left penang to go kl, not when i left for melbourne, heck not even when my siblings left. oh well, i'm doing my best to keep myself busy (*cough* study ann, study!) but i gotta say, it's not helping =/

but yea, ANYWAY, even though i didn't do much in perth, i still have quite a few photos, teehee, so here you ppl go.

@madison's birthday and her afterparty. not many photos here coz.. i have no idea who took the photos that night.

can you see that ALL their flights were delayed? and not by a short while.. TWO and a HALF hours people ! RWAR !
was so looking forward to go their asia cocktail thingy but no! couldnt' make it coz i reached my baby's house around 3.40am. but teehee, gotta say having him hug me was one of the best feelings a person can get. ever. meh, am getting maudlin again, can't be having that, can we?
and honestly, even if we didn't do much, having him with me was magical.

anyway, i woke up around 2pm on sat (approximately 4pm melbourne time, lol, gimme a break, i slept at like 6am perth time so my body was exhausted!) and then went for lunch and stuff.. nothing big that day.

met up with lin on sunday at freemantle and so, yea, bunch of photos from fremantle.

some cute graffiti i saw there. spot the bears! how many do you see?

walking to cicerello's for lunch with kenny and dennis and ken with lin playing photographer =)

they've this magician there to entertain the patrons. he's pretty decent street magician. lol, got a card stuck to the ceiling and guessed which suburb ash lived in. hahaa, should have asked him to guess mine or lin's =p


lin getting her airbrush tattoo.. although it didn't look really great


we went to little creatures to chill for a bit. little creatues is this kinda really cool brewery.. they brew their own beer and you can actually see all the beer vats and see the process of them brewing your beer!
their pale ale's pretty good =)

went for dinner with jo and cherlyn and ken later that night, lol, it was kinda fun.
with everything repeating and stuff. lol

and a random photo of ash and me coz well, teehee, we look good together ! *cough egoism kicking in here (;*


i also went to watch wall-e during the course of the week i was there at carousel. it's such a cute movie ! i LOVE IT !
i recommend EVERYONE to go watch coz it's fabulous !
and according to george, all wall-e toys are sold out. ash found this $USD250 ultimate wall-e robot that can actually respond to your voice and avoid obstacles and all. pretty amazing.

anyway, yea, that's about it for now. more on the royal perth show when i come back!
dinner time, nom nom.

may the force be with my faraway sweetheart,
cheers~

bai bai perth.

am going back to melb TODAY! *sobs*

bai bai perth. *SIGH* hallo melbourne.

it seems like just yesterday i was being all excited and stuff, weighing my luggage and getting ready leave my house.
just yesterday when i was being all grumpy that tiger delayed my flight.
just yesterday when i walked up to your door and you were standing there with ur arms opened to greet me.
just yesterday when you hugged me after two months of absence and i knew everything would be ok.
just yesterday when i thought 10days would stretch out forever.
just yesterday that i was thinking, so what if he'll be too busy to spend time with me coz he's got all his assignments due and stuff, at least we'll be together.
it was just like yesterday, and i wish it could last, that i could be here with you.

now, i'm doing the same - busy packing and getting ready to leave the house. yet i'm dreading the tick of the clock; i've got less and less time to spend with you
i'll make the most of the time i have left with you
can't wait for you to get back from uni

i love you sweetheart =(
can't wait to see you again.

the pacemaker

i would really like to upload some photos and give a quick update since my sweetheart's at work and i've got monopoly of his computer...

but (there's always a but) i can't figure out how to get his cardreader to work, teehee, i'm uncomputer savvy i am.

in any case, i haven't actually DONE anything this holiday.. just the royal perth show, wall-e, hanging out and dinner with ken/jo/cherlyn at some point or other and a dimsum lunch with jason and frances. yet, i've been enjoying every second of my trip here. every second.

i'm going to miss him so much when i leave, and that's too soon from now. one week and more has slipped by my fingers like grains of sands in the dunes of time.

so take my hand, I will follow, Only you can slow this down
so take my hand, and I will mellow, make me stay, here with you

promise, proper update when i get home and back to my normal (albeit somewhat saddening) life.

may the force be with you long distance couples,
cheers~

i could

i could wake up and watch you sleep, wondering how i got so lucky to have you by my side,
i could see you smile and my whatever a day i had, it will brighten,
i could hear your voice and know i'll be safe,
i could look forward to mornings knowing i'll get to see you soon,
i could make mistakes and be an idiot and hope you'll forgive me for what i say
i could be the best i could be coz you bring out the best in me.

i could do a lot of things
but most of all i wish i could be there with you.
or you, here with me.

sooner or later, we push up flowers

there are those times when you miss being home.

yes, i do admit, i like it overseas, if nothing else, the weather treats me better for the most part.

but when you wake up with a mindwrecking headache coupled with a hacking cough and cold and fever, there really is, nowhere like home.

when you're living on your own, even when you're sick, you still have to drag your body out to get your own meds, get your own drinks.. and meals. aye, you even have to do your laundry as there's no one else to do it for you.

and.. at times, it feels so depressing, that even sick you can't just lie in bed and snooze but you have to still do things, still study, still finish assignments.

at times like this mum, i definitely appreciate all you've done for me and how well you look after me all these years. and of course that you've armed me with an arsenal of what-to-get-medicine knowledge.

i miss home, i wish i could just curl under my covers and try get some sleep. and have someone tuck me in and tell me i'll be just fine.

=((



p/s: emo post will be deleted when i'm better. toodles~

my darling wicket

dear dear computer, please work..

i love you so much but i can't do anything with you shutting down every 10minutes. and i'm sure you're wrecking hell on your system =(

i can't even do my work or listen to my lectures anymore. please, why?

please let you be fixed once the psu's changed.. please? it will kill me if its the motherboard problem, and i know you know so too =(

*crosses fingers*

please, dear dear wicket *sobs* i can't live without you!

=((

may the force be with my poor dear overworked wicket.

iorek bazooka

this is gonna be one of those super mushy emo post, those that i come up from behind and attack me every once in a while.

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to my defense, fatty left like.. an hour ago so i shall forgive myself for the whole emo-ness.
i still have tonnes to do.. a case study due tomorrow, classes to catch up on and stuff but still ! *sigh* i'm missing him so much already. it was a good great fabulous holiday. I enjoyed him being here so much the month just slipped me by in a blink of an eye.

His going back kinda marks the return to reality, the return to uni and study. the end of my super holiday.

i'm so looking forward to next seeing you again. enjoyed you here so so much, i wished it didn't have to end ='(
u're on the airplane now, soon to be out of reach again, sigh.
i had the bestest holiday ever, even if though i stayed in melb. i have never, in my life, gone to so many places to eat, never tried so many activities, never did things i thought i would ever do in the near future. you broaden my horizons, sweetie, and i thank you for giving me the most memorable break from reality, ever.

of course, extended thanks to my housemates for all their plotting behind my back to give me such a wonderful surprise and of course, helping me give him a good trip. bestest housemates ever (;


*cough*
don't say i didn't warn you. lol, emo post. LOL

to cheer it up some photos of my new addition to the clan

IOREK BAZOOKA

baby saw him and he CAPTIVATED our attention from first stare. i tried walking away from him but.. he's so magnetic. he pulled me back. teehee, thanks for iorek, sweetie

he's damn cute. he has a giant belly and even.. a belly button, LOL

he's been assimilated into my clan already! all my cuddables love him already! even coo-2 aka kutu

us, wishing you a safe trip home.. see, iorek and bloo are waving goodbye =(

may the force be with my baby flying home (may he have a safe flight),
cheers~

and one more, just because.